a look in the mirror

Today I was walking into the bathroom and caught a glimse of myself. I had to stop, I stared in the mirror and had to say " I love you"...at the end of the day if I don't love me then who else will?

the truth..untold...C.Mone`

lies arent as easy as they seem

It takes way too much energy for someone to pretend to be someone that they aren't...sooner or later they won't be able to keep up the lie.
Its at that moment that you'll see who they really are.

You can paint a white horse with black stripes and call it a zebra... but as soon as it rains..its a horse again..

the truth..untold..C.Mone`

Release the Pain and Live

There comes a point in your life were you have to let go. I'm not saying forget, I'm saying let go of the things in your life that are preventing your own happiness. Sometimes we are the biggest obstacle in our own lives. Often times we become perpetual hoarders of negatively. Collectors of tragedy.

In many cases we keep individuals in our lives that do nothing but pull us down. They act as succubus, draining our spirit, adding poison to our soul, degrading our bodies, and bringing emptiness into our homes. Yet for some reason those are the very people we have such a very hard time letting go of. In fact you become so accustom to the negativity you depend on it you crave and need the loss of esteem, and degradation that comes along with.

You can be no better than a crack fiend or a heroin addict who allows a poison or evil to come into your life and control your every action. However, your drug of choice is pain. You keep people around who cause you pain, you attract people and situations who are harmful in a multitude of ways.

But this is no way to live it isn't healthy. Your slowly allowing pain, unnecessary pain to kill you. You must remember the cause, release the pain, and LIVE...

the untold truth...C.Mone`

my take on the one night stand

Those who know me know I'm am so nosy... I cant help it I get it from my grandmother. anyway.. I sat in my business and commerce class today when I heard the most upsurd random thing to be said aloud while someone is waiting for a class to begin.

woman: yea friday night ! came home at 7 after happy hour I  passed out on the bed my daughter came to check on me but I wouldn't budge.

man: why'd you pass out?

woman:well I went out cuz I'd been sick for a few weeks and I'd hadnt been feeling to good.

man: You know what a week ago I had a one night stand I was talking to this girl she said she
hadn't been feeling to good she was always tired, sore throat, headache, so I said cool well
lets go back to your place...and you know what like the next day I started having all of her
symptoms.


In my head I said you idiot... I hope you like death because... you've just got AIDS... first why is it cool to have a one night stand..this is where the term dirty p***s comes from, secondly if someone told me they came to the bar and was sick I would definitely turn and walk the other way it is certainly a time when swine flu is taking over i don't know about you but I cant take time off work I like money and have an adversion to things that keep me from making it... so next time if you think bout having a one night stand do the following check list:

1. do I value life
2. is this person clean
3. would my mother approve
4.how can this affect my money


the truth untold....C.Mone`

brown sugar

I sit here watching brown sugar and I've come to realize one thing, its rare that we'll ever find love like that. But the question is when you do find it will it last. How rare is it that your best friend becomes the best man you've ever be with. How often is it that you will find any man who will know you in and out who will be a lover, friend, and confidant. I know it isn't something you come around often, but I wouldn't mind finding one who could do for me the things I didn't even know I needed done.

baby does not equal redemption

So I looked at a magazine cover not to long ago and I happened to see Kourtney Kardashian talking about how her baby saved her relationship. Maybe its me but a baby should not be the way to make a relationship work. Babies can't help you keep a man, nor should they be a reason to stay in relationship that you should really get out of...Maybe she didn't even mean it the way it came out. However the statement, " My baby saved my relationship", should never be made.

Homosexuality....some chose it others have no choice

A few days ago a co-worker and I were having a discussions about homosexuality. Now I personally have no life experience of being gay but I do however have my opinions on it. My co-worker and I both know individuals who we either know or think are gay, but the reasons behind it we did not agreed upon.

She believed that gay people had a choice on whether or not they are gay. I listened to her argument but frankly I didn't think it was completely right. I listened to how she told me they could be cured through prayer, that they had to want not to be gay and go to god to stop that life style. It was in her opinion that it was a spirit causing them to be gay, that it was a temptation like everything else and they had to refuse it.

I however do not think that homosexuality is choice for all people. I think for some like people that up and decide one day, "oh I'm gay" and blame it on a negative relationship that yes that is a choice. However, how can you deny that some people are born that way when there are people that commit suicide because others tell them that the feelings they have and the people they love are not right.

If being homosexual is such a choice why wouldn't someone just choose to be heterosexual. Who would chose to be viewed with prejudice, to endure unnecessary pain, or have limited rights in the eye of the law, no person would.

In my opinion it shouldn't matter who a person loves as long as they love. Who are we as people to tell someone who is OK or not OK to love. The answer is we are no one. The choice to be gay for some is a choice and for others its just as much a choice to be heterosexual.. One day you just know who your attracted to. No one should be faulted for that.

Love is love and no one should be judged for it.