girlsations....

girl: idk why they even bother to get the number if they going to act like that

Me: they love the chase. problem is they don't know what to do when the chase is up



C.Mone... truth untold

my words to a friend

if u mad at the world fuck it but always remember when fucking someone else never screw yourself

C.Mone.. truth.. untold

death chasers

Surprise..Surprise AIDS is a deadly disease. I know what your thinking that's not surprising we all know this, its been told to us in health education classes, during every AIDS prevention commercial, and public service announcement for many many years now. But what is a surprise is that even though its a deadly disease there are people out there chasing it like a high that will never end but only get worse. While reading Karrine Steffans' novel The Vixen Diaries I read about Barebacking parties or "conversion" parties. To be honest I found these parties revolting.

Let me explain these barebacking parties are where non infected gay males come in an attempt to catch AIDS or HIV from an infected gay male. They refer to this dangerous disease as "the gift"...my question is what type of gift is that, you certainly can't return it to the store if it turns out you don't enjoy it as much as you once thought you would.

The truth is what value do these "bug chasers" put on their lives? What would make you possibly believe that trying to contract a disease that so many wish they never came in contact with would be a wise idea. The answer to that I don't know, what I do know tho is that your trying to do something that's willingly putting your life at risk with little regard for what is to come after it.

So for these reasons I must ask, why do you want to die, and I deem you know more than a DEATH CHASER.

C.Mone...the truth untold

Housewives?... are you really?

So I'm sitting here watching Real Housewives of Orange County and they are introducing the newest housewife who is taking Jeana's place. Now, don't get me wrong I love these shows seeing how the other side lives.. the ups the downs and the in-betweens. But I must admit that watching these shows really allows me to find flaws and things that need to be improved in people through out their circle.

For example, the new housewife stated that she was a stay at home mom and want to be the best mom possible. Now this wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't followed by " we have two nannies". Maybe its me but why exactly do you need two nannies if you stay home and DO NOT work.
This is a flaw in logically thinking to me and quite frankly since I am very finance oriented.. it is a WASTE of money.. whether you have it to spend or not.

My question is what exactly is a housewive.. is it not working and not watching the kids...can you be a housewive if you don't have kids.. can you be a housewive if your never home.. or if you have a job?.. I ponder these things

Just a random thought


C.Mone..truth... untold

givng to much of myself

" I often find that I want to give too much of myself - a self who is still underdeveloped and isn't finished setting anchors in the tide." --Karrine Steffans

I must agree with Miss. Steffans, she is not alone in this feeling and for the most part she never will be. I too have done the same thing. I think however, that it takes a certain type of person to become this way and although having the ablity to care and love without boundary can be a blessing it is most certainly a curse. Love it self can be like air... when you have it you can breathe and everything is right, however when you don't nothing is right.

I can't speak for everyone only myself , but I find at times when it comes to love I wouldn't say that I was dumb..but I would say I could do too much. Sometimes your so deep into a situation that you don't even see what's going on around you, you don't see that your putting in all you have to give plus some and your not getting nearly half of that back.

Honestly, when your not even who you want or need to be yet that is a dangerous road to start walking down. Your going to end up giving so much to someone you don't have anything left for yourself...

C.Mone... the truth untold.....

days like today

its days like today when i sit here alone.. watching movies that i realize..
although i don't need a boyfriend, or friend that just so happens to be a boy.. it sure would be nice to have someone to make me coco and cuddle with..

C.Mone`....my truth

history

"history is written by those who hang heros"---- brave heart